Tuesday, January 20, 2015

Getting My Art On...

Happy Tuesday everyone!

I finally feel like I'm getting organized daily bit by bit. So by next December...I should have the house all set! LOL...Yearh right. However, it is a start. I had a shirt back in the 6th grade that said "Everything is better in moderation" and then it had 6 cartoony pictures on it of Mac N Cheese, Lipstick, Coffee, etc...To this day I remember that shirt and think fondly of it and sometimes adhere it to my every day...I think if you do everything all at once, what is there to do tomorrow? I think I would be bored out of my whits!

So instead, I find myself reaching for my art pad, journal, or canvases. Late at night I itch to pick up a paint brush. So that is just what I do. I don't go to a quiet room and visualize an image to put onto canvas. Instead, I lay out a garbage bag on the living room floor, bring in all my supplies and turn on NCIS and paint until an image starts to form. Sometimes they turn out, sometimes they do not. But a few months back, I found myself in a funk. Really depressed. Crying at anything. Didn't know what the heck was wrong with me. Even talked with my doctors, and they referred me to a counselor, however, I have to wait til the end of February, and that was at the beginning of December. So I had to do something to break free of the fog. Art is doing that for me.

Today I was talking with my sister as she has found the same outlet. She's so talented and I love seeing her creations. She told me the same of me. It was weird as I paint or draw just for me. I don't think I'm good and often times think I'm faking the funk, but I've been able to provide for my family on my illustrations in the stamping and scrapbooking community for the past 10 years. Why not painting right? I'm excited to see where this new venture takes me, but it wasn't until I stopped worrying about what others would think of my art that I actually started to create it. It's releasing me and I'm finding a voice and I find it is addicting...It's freeing my mind and I see visions of artwork daily in my head that I itch to put to canvas. I just hope I don't forget them before I have a chance to paint them! :)

With these paintings, I'm going to be teaching some paint classes and cannot wait! Paint parties, Pope County Fair, Wine & Paint Nights, etc...I'm most looking forward to doing kids birthday parties as I LOVE watching kids explore their talents, especially my own children! I get proud to see their finished creations! Hope to share some of these classes with you in the future!

So here are a few paintings I've done lately that I'm very proud of. I'm not sure of my exact style, but maybe along the lines of "Surrealism"? Anyways, if you are interested in purchasing any of these pieces or if you've got an idea of something you would like to see me paint, got to My Etsy Shop please leave a comment! I know the chances of anyone reading my blog are slim, but I always love to hear from people! :)

Have a blessed day!







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Saturday, January 17, 2015

My "Ah-Huh" Moment of 2015.

Get ready, this is gonna get heavy!

So I was invited to this online bible study entitled "I Do Hard Things" from Havilah Cunningham. It's a 20 day bible study, just a few minutes each day. I however, didn't start until this morning. They are on day 17 of 20. After starting, I couldn't stop. I now find myself on Day 14, and I had to step away in order to shower! LOL.

James 1:2-4



Wow. This is the word that is in my mind. After Day 1, I was hooked. It talks about the 4 pits of pain. These are negative places or spaces in our lives. She identifies them as 1. Childhood Pain. This one struck a cord with me as this is the entire basis of my pain at 33 years old. These are pains brought to us only by the fact that we were born into hurtful environments. We had parents who had us, but didn't offer us love, support, protection, guidance. This is something I've never gotten over. I have children now, 3 beautiful boys and I give them everything I never had. But I am still a little girl who feels unwanted and abandoned. Even though I have a wonderful, loving husband who is not only my best friend, but my world. Even though I have these 3 wonderful little beings that God has blessed me with. It still is the bane of my existence. 2. Physical Pains. Yes! I have this as well! I wasn't born with physical ailments. I instead was injured and with that, became physically disabled. It affects me daily. Some days are so unbearable, I make excuses not to get up and do this or that. 3. Personality. OMG, it's like this day 1 was made directly for me. Because of my upbringing, I have developed a defensive way of approaching life. I hold others at bay including, not internationally, my husband and kids. And lastly, 4. Cycles. I may not be a statistic of where I came from, or fell into bouts of addictions to substances. But I did fall into cycles of self harm and mutilation. I went from school to life within a month of graduation. It wasn't a gradual thing, but SMAK...you are tossed into real life. I'm going to compare this as a person who doesn't know how to swim. When you toss them into the middle of lake without a life raft, life jacket or a way to stay afloat, they will sink. They may not drown, but they will bring everything around them down in order to stay afloat. This was me. I had no life skills and I was expected to be an adult. This was not a good situation and my fears got the best of me at a young age. Thus severing my ties with God. This in itself is an entirely different storey and one day one I hope to share with everyone in the hopes that I can help others who struggle with the same things I have.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=t8TVWBFxATs

Ok, so there it is, the 4 Pits of Pain. All 4 of them are checked off on my check list. This lead into Day 2. Victim vs. Survivor. This day for me was an eye opener. I had always thought of myself as a survivor. Others saw me in the same light. And I would become embarrassed when they expressed how much strength I had in me to overcome all that I had been through. I didn't understand not feeling worthy. Until today. Until going through Havilah's Day 2. You see, there are 2 mentalities. Victim or Survivor. A Victim always has this feeling of being Alone, that no one can possibly understand their situation or what they are going through. That God specifically targeted them to suffer. They Envy everyone else around them that lives a normal life and are constantly comparing apples to oranges. Victims are bound by Fear. Powerful stuff.  A Survivor asks themselves this, "Do you want to break free?" And if the answer is Yes, they work on breaking free. I have been living in a Victim Mentality my entire life. I am not a survivor, I am a victim. And this is why I always bulk at anyone who has ever called me a survivor. A survivor is strong, and I've been week. This is by far the hardest thing I've ever had to admit of myself. And from here, I know where to go and is my Step 1 in the heeling process!

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IMvG_M0KsNU

I know where I need to start and I am looking forward to breaking free. Freedom will lead me closer to God. Freedom will break my chains from being a Victim. Being free will leave me open to accepting God's love and walking the path he has chosen for me.

Sorry for the heavy, but it is my way of starting the heeling process!

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Friday, January 16, 2015

No one is Perfect. Who'd want to be?

Being human means you make mistakes, you aren't perfect. I think it is funny how we run across people in our lives who think they don't make mistakes. I make mistakes daily! I don't know how to stop! However, I try to learn from them and make sure that the next time I make a mistake, it isn't the one I've already made! :)

It's how we handle mistakes that builds our character and shows us who we are. I am an All'asta consultant. I have absolutely no clue what I'm doing. However, I'm learning as I go and faking the funk. I'm having fun! And there are bound to be situations that come up where I have no clue how to handle them. So what I do is go to my list of consultants on facebook {we've got a special group! It makes me feel like an "All'asta for Dummies" book come to life! So whenever I mess I go to them and get advice. I had this hostess who was so great, we worked together and created a wonderful event! The hostess was so excited on how the party had gone, it was one of my biggest parties to date and I believed I got a friend out of the deal.

Well, the hostess didn't close that evening, and ended up getting outside orders. She wouldn't give me names, or contact info and party had to close a few days later than expected and was now a RUSH to get the orders done for Christmas. There ended up being errors in these orders as the hostesses gave me wrong item numbers. How am I to know as I don't have order forms, but only the numbers she gave to me? Anyways, not a big deal, I worked hard to correct the issues. I returned items, exchanged items, even purchased items that I thought I could use and reordered the correct items. I even stayed up til 2 in the morning as one customers order was a gift, so I made a Christmas ornament that the customer could gift with a photo of the actual item and it was so cute! I paid for shipping on items out of pocket even though the mistakes weren't my fault. I went above and beyond! The entire time, I did apologize that mistakes were made and that all we could do was move forward from this point.

And after all was done, I offered up coupons to the Hostess as well as one customer for 15% off any future orders from the new Spring/Summer 2015 catalog that is said to come out February 1, 2015! Hostess's response to me was "Thank you, But No Thank You". She also proceeded to tell me all the mistakes that I had made, even though they weren't all on me and that she has such a negative taste in her mouth about my company she would never even consider ordering our products again.

I handled myself with grace and said I was sorry she felt that way. I've never had to bite my tongue so hard! Mistakes are made, but apologies and correcting mistakes are suppose to erase mistakes! Then I had to think to myself, this was an extreme case. I've never had an unhappy Hostess before, and orders have never been messed up before. So I know that I've worked really hard to correct the mistakes I make and build a business that is continuing to grow!

I can't please everyone and the more I encounter people like this, it makes me realize that it is how you handle situations that shows who you are as a person and if you just kill them with kindness and do what you can, the rest is up to them. You can sleep peacefully at night knowing you are still a good person even though you have faults. I don't wish to live a perfect life, a life of no mistakes. I'd rather have imperfections as it is pretty hard to live a perfect life, and once you've reached the point of perfection, what else is there to achieve in life?

With that being said...go on over to All'asta and check out my site: www.allastaparty.com/heatherrolin! Lots of fabulous finds to buy! If you are wondering what items will be going away with the new catalog, here is the retirement list! We are a growing company and we will be 3 years New on February 1st. If you find that you LOVE everything, join. And join NOW! The spring feature kit is absolutely LOVELY and I would love to have you on my team! When you join a ground floor company, you will find yourself there for life and you will find that the potential for success is WILD!


Catch you later!
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Thursday, January 15, 2015

Wow...1.5 years! A New Year, A New Me!

Hey there.

Trying to get back into blogging. Where does one even start? I've changed so much, my family has changed, the world of blogging has changed. I've never been very good at it anyway, but I feel the need to write my thoughts and life down, blogging is calling to me once again.

I started 2015 out with no resolutions. I'm not in the best of mind-set to indulge myself in these yearly requirements. I know I need to be a better wife & mom. I know I need to lose weight, I know my house needs to get organized, I know I need to lift some of the burdens of financial distress, I seek God daily, but I know I need to SEEK God Daily! I need to spend more time with my kids, I need to stop annoying habits, I need to find me-time. I NEED I NEED I NEED! So what is the point really of a New Years Resolution when you have so many things in life you NEED to do, but know that a resolution just means you recognize them, attempt to cross them off your list, but give up in a month or two anyways?

So my NON-Resolutions list inspired me to actually get off my butt and do things. 2 weeks in and I have no "Honey" Do List that is a mile long that needs to get done, but I find things getting done anyways. Maybe that is the key? Trick your mind into not requiring services of itself that it isn't yet ready to commit to? I have no idea! But if that is the key, then I think I'm doing pretty good. I have no deadlines. I do things as I see they need to be done and don't worry that I didn't get done something I had on my list.

I think this has happened to me because I'm sick of failure. I fail at so many things in my life that it's caused me to think of To-Do Lists as miserable experiences. Lists and tasks are stressful. I also think that my mind bulks at the idea of actually becoming a better version of itself because I don't want my husband to expect too much of me! Sad, but true! I mean, what if he actually came home to a SPOTLESS house for a week straight? He would fall over of a heart attack right? I was worried for his health! This is what I've been telling myself anyways. That I'm doing {or not doing} these things for his health! Well, 2 weeks into the new year of a clean house and he hasn't died of a heart attack! That in itself was a huge burden off my shoulders! I would never want to be the cause of my wonderful husband having any sort of health issues!

Then there is the entire Lose Weight Resolution! Who would want to make one of those?!?!?! I mean seriously, getting up 4-5 days per week early to go to the gym and put your body through the ringer because that is the only time that works for you isn't any one's cup of tea! Or making sure you watch what you put in your body so that your workouts get the maximum benefits. Staving off cravings so that you fit perfectly into your favorite pair of jeans! I boy-cotted this resolution to the 9's! I was determined to eat what I wanted to eat, even purchased a gigantic box of oatmeal cream pies because I've deprived myself of these for so long! I made sweets and treats and to hell with the consequences! Snacking, you betcha! Peanut Butter, Strawberry Jelly and Thomas Bagels! OMG Delish! But want to know what happened to this? That cake I made didn't taste good. I ate so much that I never felt good. The new jeans I purchased because my other ones were too small didn't fit right. Not tight, but actually a little bit too big and would stretch after the first wearing! I even put my gym membership on hold! To anyone reading this and thinking I sound crazy...it is so true! I was so determined not to start a Weight Loss Journey, that I went in the total opposite direction thinking that I didn't care! In the end...I've found myself craving healthy...Total insanity!

You see, I am a mess-ed up individual! No lies here! So all this "I refuse to make a resolution before I fail" thinking, is working the opposite direction. I'm not failing. I'm changing. I feel it. I'm not cured, in fact, not even 90% normal! However, I feel the change in me because I want to, not because I feel I have to! It is an amazing feeling and I can't wait to discover what the rest of 2015 will hold for me and my family! My year isn't filled with Resolutions on what I want to change, it is filled with promises to myself to work on to build my character and my relationships! If I do these things each day, mixed in with a little crazy and a little lazy, I'm sure I'll be a better version of myself! Here's a look at what I wrote down in my journal!


On a side note, I want to wish a blessed Happy 8th Birthday to my son Lance. He is an amazing sweet little guy with a HUGE heart and many talents! God knew what he was doing when he blessed us with you! Love you to the moon and back and hope you enjoy the most blessed of all days and celebrate you all year long! I made the card using my own images, printed out on decorative paper and attached to cardstock. Simple, but I know Lance will love it seeing as how he is a Shark-FIN-Natic! You can also check out his brand new You Tube Video here...He's all about the sharks!





Hope you all have a blessed day, stay warm and we'll catch you all next time!

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Monday, September 9, 2013

Garden Fresh Chili

Happy Monday everyone! Hope you all enjoyed a fabulous weekend! We were able to spend the weekend as a family basically relaxing and celebrating the opening Viking season. Even though we didn't pull out a win, I was happy to be able to make my first fall meal! Nothing, to me, screams fall more than a steaming bowl of chili! I usually just throw a bunch of items in a pot and call it good, but yesterday's batch turned out too delicious not to share! Hope you enjoy and give it a try! The fresher the ingredients, the better the flavor. You'd be amazed at all you can add to this chili! My garden fresh veggies included: Squash, Zucchini, Heirloom Tomatoes, Roma Tomatoes, Green Pepper, Jalapeno Peppers, Chili Pepper, Onions, and Garlic...

Garden Fresh Chili


8 Medium Roma Tomatoes, chopped
1 Large or 2 Medium Tomatoes {I used Heirloom}, chopped
1 Large Green Pepper, chopped
1 Medium Red Onion, chopped
1 Medium Yellow Onion, chopped
1 small Zucchini or half a med./large, cubed
1 small Squash, cubed
2 small Jalapenos
1 small Chili Pepper
3 Garlic Cloves
1 lb. Ground Beef
2 Tlb. Olive Oil {I use extra virgin}
1-1lb 15 oz. Can Kidney Beans {light or dark, your preferance}drained and rinsed
15 oz. Black Beans, drained and rinsed
15 oz. Tomato Sauce
15 oz. Water
8 oz. Tomato Paste
S&P To Taste
2 tsp. Basil
2 tsp. Parsley
1 Tlbp. Chili Powder
2 tsp. Onion Powder
2 tsp. Garlic Powder
2 tsp. Paprika

1. Have a roasting pan pre-heated to 350 or a large pot ready on med. heat.
2. In a small saucepan Brown beef, drain grease and add to a roasting pan.
3. In same pan as beef, add 2 Tlbp. of extra virgin Olive Oil and sweat out onions. Add salt & pepper. After 3-5 min, transfer to roasting pan.
4. Roughly chop peppers and garlic, pulse in a mini food possessor and add according to desired heat, reserving so you can add more heat if needed.
5. Add canned goods to roasting pan, stir around, using the tomato sauce can, add a can of water to thin out the sauce {paste will make it too thick}.
6. Chop your larger veggies and then add them to the roasting pan.
7. Add your seasonings and spiced. These are just what I used and just a suggestion. Let simmer for roughly 2-3 hours. Tastes better and better the longer it cooks. Top with desired toppings. I LOVE cheese! LOL...

Hope you all enjoy this recipe and have a blessed day!


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Tuesday, September 3, 2013

Back to School

Hello everyone!

Ok, so first off, let me apologize. I'm a horrible blooger! Too many excuses to list, so I'll just leave it at that! For the 2 people that actually read this, I thank you for keep coming back to read my blog posts! :)

Anyways, Since I last posted, we finally got our spring, and summer and now here we are at the first day of School, which marks the start of fall for us! We didn't do much this summer, but we did enjoy each other's company and little things here and there. For me, my favorite days this summer were spent at a secluded beach with the boys. Love when I can get a beach all to ourselves because then it feels like I live on a lake without the added tax hike! LOL...

Last night, we got the kids ready for bed early for a 6:15am wake up call. We brushed our teeth, set out our outfits, climbed in to bed and read some new books. One was "The Night Before Preschool" by Natasha Wing and the other by the same author was "The Night Before First Grade". The boys really enjoyed these books because they were exactly what they were feeling and looking forward to for today. I got teary eyed just reading them. I knew it was going to be a hard day for me.

So then the alarm clock goes off at 6:00am and I set off to make breakfast. At about 6:30 I made enough noise to wake the boys up without jolting them awake. They joined me and daddy in the living room and we enjoyed back-to-school-breakfast waffles! I think the nerves set in because they really didn't eat much at all!

We headed out for the bus at 6:45, still not 100% light out and took some back to school pictures. I really love these moments because you can really capture the moments and look back on them through the years. For me, today, I didn't get all the pictures I wanted because though we waited and waited and waited for the bus to come, I called transportation at 7:15 and here the bus forgot to pick us up!!! So then I had to load all the kiddos and head to the transfer school so Lance could get on his 2nd bus of the morning and head out to his new school. We made the decision to switch to a science and magnet school for their one on one attention and focus on the outdoors/nature. I'm thinking this school will be right up our alley and that we will enjoy our time there! However, for today, I'm just hoping the return my kid! :)

I'm going to do a little photo bombing of our first day of school, but for your troubles of viewing them all, I'm also doing a freebie! Maybe you can use them still for this year or save them/pin them for next year!!!

So today, as we took or photos, tears were in my eyes because I'm just that way. I cried at orientation night too! LOL...Its hard to believe that we have a 1st grader in the house and a 1st year preschooler! I was most worried to send Adam off to preK than sending Lance on a bus that would bring him 20 min. away from us! Adam is on the shy/quiet side and I wasn't sure how he would do, but he went into his classroom without clinging and I was able to leave without any tears. Ah, sweet success! However, on the way out, I did have tears from Jack as he thought it was his turn to go to school! Uh-oh! When Adam arrived home, he was all smiles and talking about a new friend he had made in his class. I'm so thankful that Cooper is an outgoing child who can help Adam feel included! So anyways, here are the pictures from this morning with my boys...





I also went back and reminised a little over the past 3 years of 1st days of school with Lance! Oh how they grow!!!



Anyways, hope you all enjoy a wonderful day and many blessings to you and your family!











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Sunday, February 10, 2013

German Chocolate...Cookies?

Hello everyone!

Well, today is Sunday, and I typically don't post on Sundays, but there isn't really much to do. I woke up early this morning with the intention of going to church, only to find out we have a blizzard and most church services were cancelled for today. I'm not sure if ours was, but I still opted to stay home. As I type this, I can't believe all I've done today and it is only 1 o'clock! What? Seems like time is standing still! 

This morning, the kids and I made Red Velvet Heart Pancakes, we watched Dispicable Me {Never gets old!}, had a pillow fight, played Super Nintendo {cause that's how we roll}...And then, noon hit and I was bored. I found myself going to the fridge, for no reason cause I know I wasn't hungry. And on the top shelf I found leftover German Chocolate Frosting and German Frosting from my VEGAN cupcakes...Hmmm...I was tempted to open up the containers, grab a spoon and start going to town. But...I was able to contain myself and decided a Cookie would be a better avenue for these leftovers. I don't know if it's been done before, but it's been done now! LOL...So then, German Chocolate Cookies were born. I have to admit, they aren't bad! LOL...Anyways, here's the recipes and I hope you enjoy!

Red Velvet Pancakes
Adapted from Recipe Girl's Recipe
1/4 c. Butter, at room temp
2 Tlb. Sugar
2  Eggs, at room temp
1 tsp. Vanilla Extract
1 c. Whole Milk + 2 Tlb. Lemon Juice
1.5 c. Flour
2 Tlb. Cocoa Powder
1.5 tsp. Baking Powder
.5 tsp. Baking Soda
2 Tlb. White Vinegar
1 Tlb. Red Food Coloring
1. In a small bowl, whisk together milk and lemon juice, set aside for 5-10 min. Heat up griddle or pan. Get out heart shaped cookie cutters and cooking spray.
2. In a small bowl, whisk together dry ingredients, set aside.
3. In a stand mixer, cream together butter, sugar, eggs & vanilla until smooth.
4. Alternately add flour mixture and milk mixture to stand mixer. Whisk until combined.
5. Add white vinegar and red food coloring and mix until smooth.
6. Pour small amounts of batter into cookie cutters. Cook until bubbly, remove cookie cutters and then flip. Cook 1 more min. and remove from heat. Serve with choice of topping! {recipe girl served her's with a Cream Cheese Frosting...may have to test that one out next time!!!}

German Chocolate Cookies
2 c. Flour
.5 tsp. Baking Soda
1 tsp. Salt
1.5 sticks Butter, Softened
.5 c. Sugar
.5 c. Packed Brown Sugar
1 tsp. Vanilla Extract
2 Eggs

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees, line baking sheets with parchment paper.
2. In a stand mixer, cream together butter and sugars. Add eggs and vanilla extract.
3. Add baking soda and salt.
4. Add flour 1 cup at a time.
5. Mix in German Chocolate Frosting {found HERE} & German Frosting {found HERE} until just incorporated {Should look slightly marbled}.
6. Using a small icecream scoop, scoop cookie dough onto prepared baking sheets. Bake 7 min.

7. Remove parchment paper from baking sheets, allow to cool. Drizzle German Chocolate Frosting over cookies. Sprinkle with hearts! {Can skip this step or decorate for other holidays}

Until Next time...

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